Taking each day, second by second, after the loss of my mother
It’s another Sunday. I just miss my mom so much. I know most don’t understand but I didn’t have a life, at least a normal/standard life. The one where I have a husband and kids and something other than her being gone to preoccupy my mind. She was it and what is sad… I let […]
It’s the last day of 2018. The last day of the worst year of my life. The beginning of the second worst year of my life. I never participated in New Year’s activities. Always doing or watching something other than the count downs because I was so disappointed in myself and where I was with […]
I am sitting here in bed, missing my mom. It’s the day before Christmas and normally, she would be here. Just like Thanksgiving, she would be here helping with stuff for Christmas Day. As I think of all the things we would be doing, I am thinking of all the traditions and things that have […]
It’s been a while since I have posted anything. It doesn’t matter, I suppose… who is listening? Who is reading my words, feeling my sadness? I want to try and help someone, try to help myself… Who even sees me now? I know I have blocked several people off… but I can see through you. […]
Someone told me today that they were glad to see me smiling and laughing. Guess I am doing as told and fooling someone.
Sunday is the hardest day of them all. Sunday is the day that I would get up at 6:30 in the morning, go to my moms house and bring her over for the day. When I first moved out from my moms house, this is something we started doing on whatever day off we chose […]
I haven’t posted anything in a bit. I started one last week and never finished it because I felt like I was harping on something that was said to me, but honestly, I am having such a hard time processing that conversation and, mainly, because of that, I have been feeling so conflicted. I hate […]
